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Saturday, October 31, 2009; 6:04 AM

hurt. dunno what to do or what to say to you anymore. it's hard to. i dun wana hav to bug you all th time. i dun wana be irritating or anything. it's not i dun wana go to you or what. i knoe what i said ytd was lyk damn bad. i dunno if you are angry or what. you wont tel miie anyways.

i i really wana forget... i just cant do it. until now i am still tearing at times. when we were at camp, i thought i didnt lyk you anymore. i though i had gotten over you. but i was damn wrong. instead i took note of you even more.

i knoe tat it was hard cuz i really hurt you last time. mayb cuz when you stead long le. th feeling gets numb, it's not tat i didnt lyk you anymore. it was becuz i had gotten so used to you being by my side tat i just took it for granted. i really love you. but i guess it's too late now. i feel so dumb. to let you go just littat. now you wont even talk to miie anymore.

how i wish you could see this... cuz it's what i wana tel you. just tat i dun have th courage anymore... cuz everytime i try, i fall really hard. i dun even knoe if you lyk miie anymore. mayb this is just one sided.

sometimes when you dun reply and stuff i feel lyk just withdrawing myiiself to a corner. it's probably no use saying all this now. cuz it feels lyk it's all over.

it's hard to accept anyone now. i dun feel lyk going into any new relationships when myii stead is not you. this cant drag anymore. i have myii chi o level soon. and next year it lyk sec 4. after tat if i leave school will i see you? i have to try to forget and fast. th thing is. i cnt seem to do it.

Days of loving you.

those days with you, it was th sweetest days of myii life.

With love
-K

Friday, October 30, 2009; 1:43 AM

today went out with twinie. after i collected report book thn saw rex, him , lucas and nic.went to talk to them and find miss khoo... and yeah. quite fun. hahax. now nth much to do. was talking to him until he was busy. sad. ohh wells. play game with him damn funny.=]

so yeah. now talking to gorx and choinging micheal jackson videos. hahax.

Days of loving you.

for you i'd swim through th rivers of time,

With love
-K

Thursday, October 29, 2009; 1:32 AM

omg! finally back in sing! yay! hahax. it was damn fun. karimun has really nice curry puffs. hahax. man, it was hectic. have to carry things all around when you are damn tired. we took bus everywhere and it is not air conditioned. but yet very windy.. hahax. myii class seperated mainly into 2 groups. group 3 and 4. both were awesome. and we showed tat our class isnt bad at all.

during th trip, i got to know alot more about others in myii class. so yeah. it's lyk different from school. =]

well. dun feel lyk going into details . one word. awesome. =]

Days of loving you.

i realise tat you still hold an important place deep in myii heart

With love
-K

Monday, October 26, 2009; 12:39 AM

so yeah. tmr camp le. going to pack ltr. hahax. siian different group from glad sia. ohh wells. mr chong dun wana change what else cn i do? so went to skol today and had pre camp activities thn hav assembly all in th ish.

ytd went out with shawn gorx. em bused to vivo first. but thr dun hav th movie i want. thn went to great world by cab. watched 500 days of summer. damn nice. LOL so yeah. thn ltr he say wana go west coast park. so we went. and climbed th string thingy. it was well... i dunno. scary. i have a phobia of heights. so yeah. thn walked around th park and he brought miie to th jetty thr. damn nice. =] thn spent th last hours of th day onn top of some bar thingy at th play ground nearby. =]

i am damn confused. mayb i m just not ready for a new relationship. i mean. i still really love him. i really do. and even if he doesnt love miie anymore. i just want him to be happy. like he is now.

Days of loving you.

is anything going to change from here? i dun know anymore. it's no longer up to miie.

With love
-K

Thursday, October 22, 2009; 6:27 AM

today had dnt competition. th day seems short. spent th whole day in dnt workshop and at nyp's auditorium. it was... welll.... em dunno how to say. but kah hoe's lame jokes were somehow keeping miie awake. and jaeme said if we get into th finals thn he go bang th wall and our skol did. hahax. so yeah. but sadly i forgot abot it last min. LOL

today is your birthday. i hope you spent it well. i didnt talk to you today cuz well... you might b happier tat way. since it's over i shall try to forget. but it's gonna take a long well. and i probably wouldnt b ready to start a new relationship in a veh long while. mayb tat's a good thing.

Days of loving you.

forget... why is myii heart still so pain?

With love

-K

Wednesday, October 21, 2009; 5:55 AM

sad... hurt and well. frustrated.... at every other thing tat is happening in myii super sad life. agitated even by th littlest things. this is bad. horrid feeling builds up at everything tat seems to b well.... horrid? trying to pull myiiself tgt when i m on th verge of a break down. trying not to lose myiiself in this hectic time. it is not easy. but who am i to tell you how i really feel? it is hard to miie to face all of this myii self. but who am i to blame it on others?

today got myii blood test results. awesome. hahax. not telling what myii blood type is. instructions from mummy. =] but know alr also no use. hahax. accompanied sis to th dentist and was msging yi zhe and lucas th whole day. lolx

Days of loving you.

it's lyk holding onn to sth you cnt keep at all

With love
-K

Saturday, October 17, 2009; 7:18 PM

ah. cnt upload photos on this com. stupid lar. shall upload ltr. so yarrhs. currently facebooking and stuff.

ytd went to grand parent's house. =] it was... filling. well thr was alot of food. dun even have to eat dinner, full alr. hahax. and thr was frozen grapes dipped in white chocolate!! and and a super big silce of cake! awesome la! hahax. not to mention almond jelly with longan! =D

at night talked to yi zhe. thn he asked for myii chi name. I M STILL NOT TELLING! hahax. shall prove it by giving him a pretty name tag.. hehe.

Days of loving you.

i dun wana remember anymore.

With love
-K

Friday, October 16, 2009; 3:04 AM

hmms. today supposed to watch movie. but went play pool. so went late. went to see th movie thingy at vivo and saw rex. =] thn went to see lucas, jun peng and jun tee. thn we went to sky park. damn hot sia. lolx. but by tat time jun peng and jun tee go home alr. so we sat at th auditorium and rex was telling lucas jokes. it was damn fun to watch when they played bitch and chee bye. lolx damn lame.

thn i felt lyk eating th carl's jr burger. so we went thr. damn funny larrhs. when we sat thr. more lucas jokes and stories. hahax. and what happened when twinie and i havent reached. damn funny. baby got his pants wet at th fountain. hahax. thn ltr when he go into aircon he say his leg damn cold. lolx.* not laughing. =]

thn went to daiso cuz twinie wanted to get sports band. cnt find. instead i got a packet of jap biscuit. hee hee. thn went to mu- ee. damn nice la.. we kept seeing pigs. thn we went out thr and saw giant i pointed to it and said giant thn rex go and point to lucas and said giant. lolx. thn lucas chased him. =]

when to th kids conner and sat for a while.. thr i sit onn th dark blue thingy and lucas pushed down... wth. and lucas spinned rex until he got a headache. lolx. thn rex tried th same thing onn miie but it didnt work cuz myii legs werent in. so i jumped off. lucas was lyk shouting her legs are not in! she will fall. =]

thn sat for a while more thn go home le. went home with rex and twinie. =] lolx rex was so tired he slept.. well everyone was. laugh too much alr. =]

Days of loving you.

it's little moments tat count.

With love

-K

Thursday, October 15, 2009; 4:06 AM

today was... em... how to say... hectic.. and i m lyk some siao cha bor cn. crap. i just realised today tat ppl have limited vocabulary. the word commonly used is siao. and they keep saying it to you. wat th. lack of vocab. it is hard to imagine tat these ppl top th level or even th class for tat matter. ohhs wells. cnt be bothered anymore. somehow... i have no mood for blogging. i dunno why. just feel lyk typing but not go into details. this week so far has been damn bad.

went for dnt compettiton preparation today. =] did quite alot. i did th switch. damn small and damn hard. one word. horrid. =(

Days of loving you.

wo shi lian le.

with love

-K

Wednesday, October 14, 2009; 3:25 AM

so yarh. went to eat donuts again. with twinie, ernest and jia ding. went to delta first. saw lucas, ken n jeric onn th way. thn while eating at th dount factory, saw kah hoe, kenneth they all. LOL. crap poa course today. walked passed hmt class two times and cher didnt even see la. lolx.

stupid la. tat it th last straw. break la break la. i heck care alr. i dun want to either. whatever la. you dun want to care then what you want miie to do. chase after you? fuck la. you run so far catch what shit sia. i keep doing tat and you wont give a damn. thn fine. whatever. hurting is lyk a duh. but. ahhh.. nvms.

Days of loving you

bleah.

With love
-K

Tuesday, October 13, 2009; 6:05 PM

now in th com lab. having some poa course and wont be attending dnt later on. mayb tat is a good thing rite? i mean. i wont be seeing him. hand pain, leg pain. he also dun care. tat is it man. myii sis say give him time. and yet again more time. i knoe i waited lyk damn long for this. but no point le. even physical pain cnt be compared to it... feeliing super shity... i start to wonder why you even patch with miie in th first place. no need to give more time already. we all knoe whr this is going. forget it. you win. happy now?

Days of loving you.

why is it so hard to find someone who loves miie for who i am?

With love
-K

hurt, angry n ohhs wells. i mean lyk really hurt. as in fell down. bleeding and wounded onn myii left and right knee and my right elbow. today damn sui lo. myii maths fail damn badly sia. thn maths period glad is not here. siian ttmx. argh. fail ch when i thot i could pass. dun wanna eleborate.

today drama was... dunno how to say... dunno why i didnt audition either. mayb cuz no mood bah. i probably audition nxt week... miss khoo was lyk asking why i didnt audition. then lingesh damn fuck sia. after tat dunno whr they went.

falling down today damn pain. putting th alcohol shit is worse. tat stinging pain. but yet they are only physical pain. cannot be compared to th pain you caused miie. th hurt feeling. being worthless in your eyes . i had enough of all this . enough of being hurt, enough of tears and pain. but yet, what else can i do?

your girl is afraid for you. your girl doesnt want to lose you. your girl want to stand by your side.

Days of loving you

that is it bitch.

with love
-K

Monday, October 12, 2009; 6:38 AM

so ya. first day of a usual skol day after exams. started th dnt compettition le. nth much to do in class. got back two papers n two other half papers( half cuz th other sections havent give back )
th two papers i got a2. so yarrhs. didnt feel lyk climbing out of bed today, but i did. cuz i wanted myii papers back. argh. fail maths fail deh damn bad. expected.

today twinie gave miie marshmellows! =] thn i was lying onn it when benedict took it. thn he and edrick throw it ard. dots. just cuz they wana eat. lame rite? hahax. bt quite cute la. and twinie has a new haircut! he told miie not to laugh, but he still looks th same leh. LOL. thn in class baby throw miie a sweet. all i did was call his name. ii also didnt say i wan sweet. hahax. baby damn cute. thn in th end gave him th letter and he kept it in his bag.=DDDDDDDDDDDDD

today second month. i hope you read tat letter sweetheart. although i didnt spend much time on it. hahax. but yarrhs. whatever it is, i just wan you to knoe tat no matter how you change, i'd still love you all th same. =] things may change in th future, and i dunno if you would still b thinking of miie or loving miie back. but no matter what it is, i would never forget th times you gave so much and those moments we spend together. i would love you more if i could, hold onn to every sec with you. i knoe tat that would probably be impossible rite now cuz of our current situationn n i decided tat tat is th best solution for both of us. i dunno wat would it b lyk when i mention it to you, would you have any reaction at al? it's gonna hurt damn bad and i knoe i would feel damn empty. but i m ready to let go... dun give miie false hope again. i cnt take much more of this.

Days of loving you.

after today... it probably going to end.

With love
-K

Sunday, October 11, 2009; 2:09 AM

blurred, by alot of things. saddened by certain things. and confused by all this. i dunno what to do now or how to react. mayb it is not true. mayb it is. i dun wan to keep thinking about it. things are already as bad as it is. things tat i have to go through myiiself. and when i thot i have gotten over it all and those days were behind miie, it keeps comming back.

people around miie keep doing tat. why? unexpected things. everyone seems unexpected. it scares miie. when you think you know this person, and he/she does sumthings tat makes you feel hurt and you start to wonder. do i really knoe him /her? is this really the person i once called friend?or even a best friend? because i dun seem to knoe him/ her anymore.

Days of loving you

it is utterly confusing

With love
-K

Saturday, October 10, 2009; 9:23 AM

ahh it is lyk 12 plus in th morning n i am still up. cuz family went out late to eat dinner. ahh. lolx. cn log in to facebook now. bleah. this is so crap. good thing blogger is stil working. lolx. facebook! i need it! omg larrhs. feeling damn random.

alalallaalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalaala. showing dad th pomegranate phone. hahax. ppl shd go see man. n they cn figure out themseleves if it is real anot. http://pomegranate.com go see. =] hehe.

feel lyk eating cream cake n drinking carrot juice. ahh. lolx

Days of loving you.

i cnt seem to get you out of myii mind.

With love
-K

went to phoebe's party. quite fun. hahax.played wng intoii n ate quite alot n cream cake! damn nice sia. hahax. hmms before tat talked to twinie. hahax. thn yeah. dun feel lyk going in to details.

i had enough of you la. so bitch cn. xi bei crap. bloody irritating at times you knoe. boss ppl around. lame la. damn siian cn. wa lao talk lyk you damn what littat but you keep lying. you are nothing but a lier. n a fucking bitch.

Days of loving you.

super random.

your daily dose of vitamin k, bitch.

Friday, October 9, 2009; 8:48 PM

ah. saturday. =]

happy birthday phoebe hunneh!!

lolx she is finally turning 14. hahax. ltr going to her b'dae party. all th way at kebangan... i hope th spelling is correct. hahax. okayys... so ltr meeting marc thn going tgt. heehee. i wonder what we are going to do thr. hmms. her aunts house is damn big cn. =]

just finished a quiz onn 100 truths. so now dunno do what. talking to twinie onn msn. he is damn bored. lolx n lazy. tat piggie. hahax.

so yeah. though exmas are over i still have chi o levels to think about. crap. nvms tat. now tat exmas are over n i have nth much to keep miie busy, i cnt help but think about our realtionship... it's not getting any better... playing keep away hurts. alot.ahhhhhhhhhhhhh. dun wana think about it.

Days of loving you.

it all seems meaningless now.

With love
-K

ytd went to plaza to watch cloudy with a chance of meatballs with sis. damn cool. saw ming duo n shahul hahax. =]

had dnt early todae. went to skol. on th way saw jaeme. thn walked with him al th way to th workshop. =] saw matt thr. so yarrhs ltr thn kah hoe n marx came. went up stairs n did brainstorming. 3 ideas. hahax. thn cn go le. thn went home.

dun feel lyk going in to details todae.

Days of loving you.

baby.

With love

-K

Wednesday, October 7, 2009; 4:41 PM

ah. no exams todae n they are finally over. all th hmt ppl no nid to go to skol todae. i shd hav checked myii phone earlier bt i slept damn early ytd. so yeah. did not see. thn this morning saw. bt i was already prepared to go out. ugh. bt myii mum wanted miie to confirm so no choice lo. call skol. thn they say dunno. and mdm xusu havent come in yet. so they ask miie either call other friends or call back ltr. thn started calling lo. bt alot never pick up. guess they are still sleeping. thn clarissa picked up. she confirmed tat thr isnt any lc today. bleah. cnt get to sleep . dad allowed miie to stay up n watch tv. =]

so now facebooking n watching tv. later going out with family to eat breakfast. thn aftnoon going out with meimei to watch show! cloudy with a chance of meatballs. hehe. awesome. tom and jerry is damn cute sia.

baby. it's been days since we talked at all. i cnt say tat i dun miss you. i really wana see you. though it's best i dun i mean it is easier for miie really. i guess i really need to move onn. it's about time i did. i just cnt seem to. wouldnt it b better if thr is sumone to love miie? ohhs well. =P i guess i have myiiself to love miie. if thr is any at all or not. it's probably depends onn fate. i m not tat desprate la.

Days of loving you

al i want is love.=]

with love
-K

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala...=] todae last paper. welll sortda. tomorrow lc. crap third time taking this year. lolx anyways went out with twinie today! onn th way to redhill saw jaeme. =] talked for abit. thn i gotta drop off le. twinie really go wear th pink shirt i ask him to. cuz i wanan see how he look in pink. damn cute sia... =D hehe. so yarrhs he brough wee keat along. =] we went to eat first thn look for twinie's shirt. twinie and i ate pepper lunch while wee keat ate tepanyaki. dunno how to spell.

looked for quite a while. shop is not opened so went to iluma cuz twinie said i wanted to. lolx he wana go still push to miie. thn wee keat say okay lo. so yarrhs. thn we took the super long escalator!! cuz i thot it was damn cool n asked if we could take it. hahax. it was abit scary bt awesome. =] saw a bunch of queenstownians there. watched ppl play arcade for a while thn went off le. continued looking for twinie's shirt.

after an hour or two. found it!=] hahax. it was 25 n th tie was 10. bt th person said cn give 30 al tgt. hahax. so yeahs. he bought it. it looks nice onn him. thn myii turn to look for myii things. bt keep walking thn cannot find. so wee keat went home and twinie n i continued our search. hehe actually my search. hahax. walked for damn long. thn found th perfect one! finally! hee. twinie pei miie walk al th way just to find a vest. thn we continued to look for a bag. bt sumhow unsucessful. so yeah. went to vivo and walked until myii legs were freezing. bought two super long candies.

went to tiong cuz i felt lyk eating donut. so we bought 6. three for th each of us. two for myii family n 1 for miie. one for his bro n two for him lolx. twinie so greedy!! hehe todae he pike th hair style nicer. so i took another one. =] and it is pooh pooh's second time out. pooh pooh is baby give dehs. so brought it out todae. =]

still left sum money to go out with meimei tomorrow. hehe. she just recovered.=D big smily!

Days of loving you.

i tied twinie's tie! pro-ness.

With love

-K